The first set...the 'marriage counselors'...she was reminiscent of Tammy Faye.  She had the ugliest make up.  One color lip liner and another color lipstick.  Her hair, at least wasn't big as in the case of many television preacher's wives.  I'm at work and I have been talking to all kinds of preachers and religious marriage counselors.  I'm at work and have to be nice.  I would rather not talk about my past in a religious place, because that isn't who I am anymore.  I don't attend church because I don't want to, not because I can't find a church.  I have a REAL family.  I don't want to have church members be my 'mother, father or aunt and uncle.'  I have my own relatives that I miss and will see again once Freaky finishes up school.  I know the bible inside and out.  I know what I believe because of what I have researched and studied.  I only 'talk the talk' because I'm in sales and I know what makes people tick.  I don't really care about what they are 'selling' because as I have learned..."You can't kid a kidder."

I don't intend on going back to the religious lifestyle.  (My father when he sends me an email, he signs it: "God loves you and so do we."  It is like a stab to my heart every time he sends it.  I hope he comes up with something different soon.  I love my parents and simply don't talk about religion with them if I can help it.  I doubt if they will come to the wedding when Freaky and I marry.  First strike, it will be my second marriage.  Second, It will not be a religious ceremony.